For years when I was in high school, people would ask me:
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
As an A student it always shocked people that I wanted to write, float around the world, sleep on the beach, speak to weird beings/ entities and smoke weed...
My first memory of money is one of me stealing money from my great grandma (ZAR 7/ 70 US cents).
And then to make matters worse - I lied to my grandmother about where I got the money...
When it comes to paying myself first. Do I do it even when I don't get enough money to cover my expenses?
We are all connected to wealth and we are all connected to poverty. We are all connected to health and we are all connected to disease. The soul wants to experience all these things.
Your soul is not just connected to other souls in this life but to other versions of you in other life times and other dimensions.
I’ve been thinking a lot about forgiveness and boundaries.
A few weeks ago I did the meditation on memories about money and had a past life memory.
It’s a memory I’ve had many times before in my past life regression sessions, where I saw my mother kill me. She was a soldier in that life and I was the wife of a man who was plotting treason and when the soldiers came looking for the man they found me.
My sister was my son in that lifetime and I had hid him (my son) in the shed so he could be safe.
In the meditation I flashed to this memory and I saw how right before I died I made a vow to avenge myself and avenge that killing.
This was a light bulb moment for me because I finally understood why my inner child at the age 4 was obsessed with vengeance, especially when it came to my mom.
The first time I ever flashed to this memory, a few years ago, I kept going back and forth between that past life memory and this life time.
One thing that I have long learnt about the phrase “I can’t afford this or that”, is that, most of the time, we are subconsciously saying “I don’t want to pay for this or that” because we spend money all the time, it’s really about our priorities, if something is your priority, you will find a way of affording it, if it is not, you will find excuses of why you “can’t” afford it.
