Why Success Brings Up Fear and Self-Doubt

Deciding to more than quadruple my income years ago was one of the scariest things I ever did.

I had figured out how to budget really well on US$2,000 a month, I was just making it and had taught myself not to complain because there was a time when I made no money (0 rands/ dollars) for 2 years in my previous business.

But one day I got honest with myself, I was done just getting by and pretending like all was good. I made a decision - I was going to make over US$100,000 (R1.7 million) a year in my business.

That was one of the scariest decisions in my life and it also brough all my doubts and fears to the surface. Every fear of criticism, feeling of unsafety, losing friends etc. came to the surface.

Not only did I fear those things - they started to play out in my life on a larger scale.

When we expand and decide to increase/ double our income we will be faced with doubt, criticism, love and even hate.

The old trauma will surface. The deep ugly things we believe about life and ourselves will come to the surface.

Why?

Because our very expansion challenges the way we see the world and how we see ourselves.

To expand often requires a becoming, which will require the death of our old identity.

If we see ourselves as not good enough and we suddenly double our income and increase our visibility of sphere of influence, we will get a lot of people complimenting us and telling us we’re amazing but we’ll also have a lot of people criticizing us and judging us, it can cause havoc in the truest sense of the word.

Sometimes just the decision to make more money or double our income can lead to our stagnation

All the stories we have of what it means to make more money – work harder, more family responsibility, more eyes on us…

Our sub personalities (archetypes, inner child, inner teen) and vows come to the party to remind us we are not good enough or that it’s not safe to make money and they start to help us block all that expansion to protect us and keep our old identity in place.

Our inner child, archetypes/shadows, vows etc. are not here to ruin our lives, they are trying to protect us and keep us safe in the only way they know how.

The uncomfortable money stories and nervous system responses that surface when we make the decision to expand are uncomfortable, so we run and try to ignore them or quickly replace them with a positive thoughts.

Or worse – we try to push through the nervous system responses.

This feels like the right thing to do but when we run from things, we give them power.

We teach our mind that there are good and bad thoughts. When there's no such things - there's simply: thoughts.

We’re the ones that decide that they are good or bad.

This need to always think positive thoughts, teaches our minds to fear uncomfortable thoughts and uncomfortable sensations

This is not life! Life is good and bad. It is dark and light.

It is the combination of joy and heartbreak. To seek only joy and refuse to feel sadness or grief or any other heavy emotion is to live in fear of the darkness and to live in fear is not true joy.

In the same way – the expansion journey is light and dark

Expansion is going to trigger you, your expansion is going to trigger others around you, it will also inspire others around you and you are going to grow in ways you never anticipated, if you spend your life running from your triggers, you will make expansion harder.

If you dance with your triggers, invite the fearful and uncomfortable thoughts and allow those scared parts of ourselves to share their fears, you liberate yourself and start tapping into your own ancestral money wisdom and can hear your intuition, which leads to magic.

How much is it costing you to keep avoiding the pain and the trauma?

How long has it taken you to do the things you really crave and desire because you are too scared of triggers, criticism, triggers, or what others will say?

What do you owe your life?