The good news is that the eCourse opens for registration in 10 days on May 25th and I’ll be sharing a lot around that in the next few days.
The other good news is that my spirit of money and I are talking again and we’re having really deep conversations in the Lesson 0 meditations in the #MoneyMagic eCourse.
A few weeks ago I shared how money asked me to go from lover to husband and how that led to a total meltdown and a break in our conversation.
I also shared how this felt like I was in the middle of a relationship with an actual lover and how this was my normal reaction to any conversation about commitment.
This time I decided to woman up and actually face my commitment fears
I went back to the spirit of money meditations and had a conversation with money about all this.
Money pointed out, that all he’d asked was to move into husband status and I’d created a whole story about what that meant.
Apparently money assumed husband status meant a deeper commitment and trust from my side but I decided that meant something else which led to a conversation on expectations.
Money explained that I live a life filled with expectations and these expectations influence my behaviour in different parts of my life.
Our stories create expectations and these expectations influence our behaviour
In my world, commitment is a dirty little word.
To me a deeper commitment or marriage means staying put, coming home at a set time and being in one place forever.
It means slowing down the pace at which I explore life, so I can do it with the other person.
It means having a curfew to come home and being this woman who suddenly cooks dinner every night because that's what is expected of me.
Because: "Adulting 101."
committing to a deeper relationship with money can be scary
I wasn’t sure what a marriage and committing to money meant, but a part of me did feel it would be boring and stifling, which scared me.
A love affair and romance with money sounds so much more exciting and liberating.
But then money pointed out something - I was speaking as though deeper commitment was a prison and that committing would change me into a version of me I didn't recognise.
Where was I in all this?
Where was my power in all this?
So money asked me to define what a marriage looks like for me,
Some possibilities require commitment to things (relationships, jobs, money, gym).
I leave you with the same questions money left me with:
What does deeper commitment to money look like to you?
What are your fears and dark expectations on really connecting and having a greater relationship with money?
Who would you be if you let go of these expectations and stories of what a deeper commitment to money looks like?
What becomes possible for you financially when you release these expectation and stories?