I have a confession to make – I spent most of last week in tears and not really able to do much and my anxiety has been at an all-time high.
Well because I finally had the courage to book my trip to Goa, India and sort out my accommodation for the next 8 – 10 weeks there.
I even handed in everything for my visa application on Friday and am now in the process of tying up loose ends.
And I also booked and confirmed my move to Sri Lanka for 3 months in February.
Which I’m sure is a good thing, except I just kinda broke down in tears and started waking up with this ball of anxiety every morning.
And the tears just don’t seem to stop
It’s not that I don’t want to go to Goa.
What scares me is that I’ve decided to merge my travels with my tantra (as in tantric sex) journey, starting with a tantra yoga teaching certificate in Goa and then daily tantra coaching sessions in Sri Lanka (those may give my parents heart attacks but I will cross that bridge when I get there).
This all has to do with my next book and my own healing.
The minute I committed to this all my fears about opening up my heart chakra came up and I wanted to run because I’m comfortable with the way my life is and tantra is all about intimacy and relationships.
So of course I’m crying and freaking out that I’m ruining my life and I just want to stay in my comfort zone.
We all fear something and most times we’d rather stick with the devil we know than go out and find the paradise we don’t.
I’m like most people – I want to arrive at the destination, without going through the journey.
We’re like that about almost everything, especially our finances. We want financial freedom but we’re not willing to do the work or give up the things that no longer serve us or to do that will elevate us.
Finding the gift in anxiety and making life changing decisions
On Friday my anxiety died down and disappeared and I’m finally at peace.
I have an awesome coach and I also used all the tools I teach to stop resisting my anxiety and to merge into it and it’s been incredible to find the gift in anxiety once more.
This is the same process I used when making the decision to get out of debt and become debt free only now I’m using it to create the life I really want.
You can join me in this week’s teleclass to learn how to become debt free
In this week’s teleclass I’ll be talking about how I went from US$60,000 in debt to debt free in 4 years.
I’ll be sharing all the spiritual, emotional and practical tools I used to release my attachment to debt and the spirit of debt.
And yes debt has its own vibrational frequency and is a spirit, only unlike the spirit of money, it’s a spirit we want to detach from, not attach to.
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